Frustrated
Sorry, I try to keep my work life out of my blog life because well for one… no one wants to hear about work, for two this is my space and three… my job sucks.
I hate getting up in the morning to have to come to work. I hate sitting here all day.
Why you might ask?
Because, like a lot of people, I’m underpaid, under appreciated actually just unappreciated and they don’t give a rats ass about what I do or if I’m here. If it wasn’t me, they’d find someone else in a heart beat.
A year ago I went to my boss and told him I wanted more. In fact I applied for another position within our department. Well, truthfully, that was my first mistake. No one wants to move someone in their department because then they have to hire for the position you’re leaving.
In the end they told me I couldn’t have the job because of what I currently make, this position pays way hirer and our company doesn’t allow that kind of pay increase so I’d have to take this high demand job for lower pay. I was told that they’d get me into a different position and work me up so eventually I could have this job. Plus, they quit hiring for it because there was no money.
The guy who left, the job I applied for, I’ve wound up taking up the slack on that job. I do a lot, not all albeit but a lot of what he did for absolutely NO pay increase. Keep in mind, there is no money, right?!?!
That was a year ago… ask me if my job or pay has changed. The answer to that is no, btw. So in the last 6 months probably things have really upset me.
I was put under the supervision of another guy as opposed to our big boss, yet no where is it written that way and my big boss still has to approve all my paychecks/vacation/etc so I don’t quite understand, but whatever.
One lady in our department decided she only wanted to work 4 days per week having Friday’s off. They approved that but made her take a 20% cut in pay. I guess that’s only warranted. oh by the way, that frees up money, why don’t you give me a pay increase because on Friday’s, when she’s out, I have to pick up her slack too.
But get this… about 2-3 weeks after she got the 4 days per week granted, she got a job promotion. With a job promotion comes more money. Maybe it’s just the 20% she took, or… maybe not, I don’t know. Plus she and 2 other guys got iPhones. But remember our department doesn’t have any money.
Then… they’ve hired on half of 2 individuals. Our department pays half of their salary and another department covers the other half. I’m sure their half we pay is more than what I make… and that wasn’t already spoken for, so obviously the “We don’t have any money” is a line of bullshit, pardon my language.
So in August I noticed they were hiring for the position again I applied for last summer. They were trying to do it secretly obviously, but I found out.
So back in August I was sent on my first company trip. The week before I was to go out a lot of crap went down and so I went in to the guy I’m supposed to report to and asked him just what was the purpose of me going on this trip. They’ve made it obvious that week I wasn’t going to get promoted and I’ve been treated more and more like pond scum as this last year has progressed.
When I brought this up, I was told that I had a sucky attitude. That I needed to do all the work that was presented to me, which by the way I do, and in a timely manner, which I do. All this stuff I “need to work on” is weird. They couldn’t give me examples of where I fail and then they proceeded to tell me that they’ll be watching me the next several months. Not for a promotion, no just so I can keep my job the way it is.
I’m extremely confused by all of this to say the least. I have basically been spit on by everyone in my department. They treat me like I am to do all their grunt work and that I’m dumb. That’s what upsets me the most. There hasn’t been anything I’ve been asked to do that I haven’t figured out if I didn’t know immediately. You don’t realize how bad I just want to cry!
And what really gets to me is I’ve been complimented on all these things I’ve done, all these things I’ve figured out, etc, yet what I do isn’t good enough. What I do, that they couldn’t do, isn’t good enough. You have no idea how upset and confused I am by all of this.
I came here from a department in the company that was extremely trying. When I left it was referred to as the Shark Tank for good reasons. That’s why most people leave that department.
I think the real icing on the cake for today’s post though, was when I got here, first one here btw, there was a paper sitting on the fax. One someone in our department sent out. And you know what it said? A person’s name and new employee forms. So there you have it, they’ve hired a new employee.
If you stuck it out with me to this point, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for ragging or being a debby downer or whatever… You have no idea how sick to my stomach I am about all of this. I was told in that meeting back in August that I was “Just paying my dues.” I’ve worked for this company 6 years in October and 3 years in this department and I’m still at “just paying my dues”, really? That’s all they think of me?
I know that there are a lot of people out there who feel the way I do. Under or un appreciated. over worked. And that makes me sad. For what it’s worth, I’m sorry! I know your pain!
