It is Hard to Fail, but it is Worse to Never to have Tried to Succeed (Teddy Roosevelt)

While making the decision to go back to school or not, I’ve run into a bunch of “road blocks” we’ll call them.  Mainly though it’s brain blocks!

I’ve been frustrated because I’m 28 years old, and while that doesn’t seem, THAT old… I sure feel old.  Luckily going to some of my classes, there are older ladies than me.  Sorry I have to tell myself my age is ok for college somehow 🙂

Then the fact that I’ve already been to college once, why am I going back? 6 years later in fact?  Why couldn’t I have taken these classes the first time around?  Why why why???  Yes I drive myself crazy sometimes with questions that can’t be answered, why do you ask?

Anyway I’ve expressed this fear to my dad, I’ve expressed this fear to my mom, poor hubby has heard nothing but this fear for the last probably month & a half.

But then my dad sent me this quote at work one day after back and forth emails about me being scared.

Well duh! was my first thought, but then I thought bout it some more and it really makes sense.  Time is going to pass no matter what.  (The question in class last night was, “At what point do you realize your parents really do know things?”  I think I realized this right after high school (18-19 y/o) but this quote just reinforced that thought)

One of my fears about going back to school now is I’m older.  If I want to have kids, I’ll be an older parent.  But what happens if I were to wind up pregnant while going through this program… but duh, you cope and go on.  A lot of gals do that and more so what is the big deal?  Finances scare me.  Failing scares me.  Rejection scares me.  A lot of things scare me unfortunately and a lot of those things aren’t things I can control.

Tonight is my first test of the semester.  Yes we only started last week.  I’ve been doing a lot of studying.  In fact, truth be known, I’ve done more studying in these last 2 weeks I think than I did my whole first 4 years of college & high school years put together.  Maybe I shouldn’t say that because if I fail this test, I’ll in fact be a failure….

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Hubs keeps getting on to me and saying I’m putting to much pressure on myself.  We’ll see how it turns out.

Boy I wish A&P was as easy as my nutrition class!  Last nights assignment was to bring a bottle of water to class, 10 points.  Write down what you ate for 3 days, one of those days being a weekend, 25 points.  And answer 2 questions out of the book, the answers were on the next page… shhhhh, 25 points.  But sadly A&P Causes a lot of frustration on my part and figuring out the 9 regions of the Abdominopelvic Region (which are Right Hypochondriac Region, Epigastric Region, Left Hypochondriac Region, Right Lumbar Region, The umbilical Region, the Left Lumbar Region, the Right Inguinal region, hypogastric region, & last but not least the left inguinal region.) or the 4 quadratic regions of the Abdominopelvic Region (Right upper, Left upper, right lower, left lower) and yes I’m doing these from memory 🙂  aren’t you proud.  Hey I have to get my studying in somehow!  I also have to know where some of the organs such as the liver, small intestine, etc are located in these 9 regional and 4 quadratic regions.  Does anyone even know where your liver is… kidding, I think.

Anyway now that I have bored you to tears I’ll go study the 11 Body systems and get ready for work (yes I can multi-task, I even tell my hubby these terms on the phone on my drive in to work…. I need a life).  I’ve even started referring to directions as the A&P terms so just remember, your humerus hooks into your elbow proximally 😉 (or proximal) anyway that’s what the book tells me :).