Every so often it feels like something is just at your fingertips but also just out of reach. The saying is always that if one door closes another door opens. Or how about, if it isn’t meant to be, something else better will come along. Those are the things I’m hanging on right now anyway. But at the same time, I guess I’m okay with it all. I don’t want to go into many details right now. In time I will, promise. And I’m the jerk who gets mad when people do this, but right now… that’s where I am. Just enough information to intrigue someone and make them say, what gives, but not enough information to actually fulfill that question.
Shame on me for being a hypocrite.
So here’s a story that is constantly rolling around in my head.
I went to Church one Sunday and the preacher was discussing a couple from a previous church placement. They were an elderly couple that he always remembered. They always held hands or he had his hand around her shoulder. She always had her head on his shoulder. He said at first he was taken back by so much affection shown toward each other while in Church.
One day he had a deep discussion with them. They told the preacher their story. It had to do with basically only having each other. Just when they started to get ahead, their daughter drained them of their money. Then their grandchildren. They never could get ahead, but they always had each other. They found the joy in that.
Now, I have no idea what the actual sermon was about. That’s all I can tell you about that. And this was from YEARS ago. At least 5 maybe. But I remember this couple. This couple I don’t know. I’ve never known. In fact, they weren’t from here. Like I mentioned, this couple was from a previous placement for the preacher before he came here.
There are a lot of days that I feel like I’m being “punished” for being arrogant in my 20’s. I think I’ve mentioned this before. And while I know that God isn’t vengeful… I still can’t help but think that I’m being punished for being so childish in my 20’s.
I was arrogant in my 20’s. There are times I can see where something I did or said in my 20’s comes back to haunt me. Yes, I can smile about that, but at the same time, it sure feels that way.
I think the days I start to feel like this, that couple’s story comes sneaking back into my thoughts. This couple that I don’t even know. I wonder why they had nothing and basically lost everything. That’s how the story went. So what did they do so wrong to deserve that? Then I start questioning if that is going to be me. I see a lot of areas where it starts looking up for us and then BAM! We come crashing back down.
I guess when I say that Life is Like a Roller Coaster, you have your ups, downs, and all arounds I’m being serious.
So there we go. A deep post for a Monday morning. Sorry, maybe tomorrow I can be a little more light-hearted. Wish me luck!