It’s late at night and I’m sitting here thinking about smiling. I’m sooooooo tired of people telling me I don’t smile anymore. I’m also tired of people constantly asking me why I’m mad. Truthfully, I’ve been asked that my whole life, and I’m just really tired of it.
First off, who walks around with a smile on their face all day, every day? The answer, no one. I have these weird frown lines. I don’t know why. Have you watched tv? There are some actors/actresses that have smile lines. I swear, even when they are upset their face looks like they are smiling. The two actresses that stick out to me are Leighton Meister (aka Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl) and Erin Krakow (Elizabeth Thatcher Thornton from When Calls the Heart). I swear, they always have a smile even when they are supposed to be sad.
But then there’s me. I saw a picture of myself back in October 2014 and I swear I had never seen frown lines like those before. So maybe even when I smile I look like I’m frowning? I have no friggin clue. But I’m so damn tired (pardon my language) of people telling me I need to smile. I might just slap the next person who tells me that. Husband, that might be you. He tells me that all the time.
Recently, we got a book that is supposed to make you talk. It’s a 3-year journal with topics. One of the recent topics was something like what do you wish your partner did. His comment was smile like she used to. WTF. I don’t even get credit when I do smile. I can be sitting there smiling and someone tells me I need to smile. WHAT? How can you smile when you’re already smiling. Maybe that goes back to no one just walks around all the time smiling. So are they asking me what I’m smiling about? Are they saying I’m crazy that I’m just sitting there smiling? I don’t get it.
I was wasting time (read that as wasting my life away) on Facebook and saw a girl who I swear is always smiling. She had a FB profile picture showing horses and she had a huge frown on her face. It was probably more a look of concentration but still…